ok... so this xanga is not working. wont let me do anything. lol its kinda falling apart. So, I made a new one. username: dinkyrina  

check it out, it might be temporary, or it might end up being permanent. I dunno yet, right now tho, it is pretty empty. and noone knows about it to comment, so it is sad...  anyway, yeah, it's depressing.

IT's a RAINY DAY! that is sad... i wanted to go out on the boat....

Currently Playing Aquarium By Aqua see related

Okay, so this weekend has been some fun. Well, I mean, pretty tired still, have yet to catch up on my sleep from relay  but whatever. Summertime is here, so I can catch up eventually. But seriously, this weekend has been cool, my family is home! Yipee... Chippy, Summer, Keith, allison... the whole gang! You know what this means... me acting super stupid. Yes, oh yeah, and late night icecream runs! heh... so yeah I am having fun. I mean.. I  my siblings!! So yeah, that is whats new. I guess eventually we are going to go boating. Yes, that is right, my sister and her husband totally have a boat now, and like, a ton of tubes and stuff like skis and kneeboards. Yippee! Cant wait, super excited!! Yipee... I love it when they come home....

 Rina

current: "The loss of a friend is like that of a limb. Time may heal the anguish of the wound, but the loss cannot be repaired." - Robert Southey

yeah... feeling kinda alone right now. No one really understands, and the people who might, well, I just dont wanna bother them right now.

last real day of school.... all I got out of it was, the most painful day in a long time. (if you care to get lost in emotion, read on)

hmph... so today was the last real day of school... omg! can u believe it? I cant! It is kinda really stupid, but it totally just hit me that it was the end in like, 10th period! Yeah, sitting in french class, realizing that I am never gonna see half of the people that I practically grew up with ever again in my life! And there are so many of them who I absolutely love, but, know i will not ever get to talk to again. I mean, seriously, so many of my childhood buddies, who have now turned into just acquantiance who i say hey to every now and then, well, I am never gonna get a chance to catch up with them again. taht is so weird, and the worst part is, no one really can understand that. Well seniors, of course. But, its over. and I feel so, regretful I guess. There were so many people who i wanted to hug, and just talk to forever today, just one last time. But then it sucked, because everyone else is EXCITED about summer. Well, I'm not. I was content, I liked things the way they were. No one else understands this insane feeling of emptiness. I feel like I've wasted my time so many times, like hanging out with one or two people a thousand times, when I should have been catching up with everyone who i've ever loved! whoa, too much thought in my head right now. It has been a rough day, and I miss everyone already. I miss everyone that I've ever been close to, and I want to have a second chance to make things right... this sucks

so today was very fun, accept for I had homework! or still have actually, but whatever. So yeah, today was amazing tho! I mean, some amazing times on the tramp... you know... lol.  well kisses tomorrow, I have lots to do, but nothing will ever actually get done! gnite all!

 ms valerie